”Aligned and Armored Up” - Real Relationships Are Costly - A Prophetic Word

By Mary Lindow
 
THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD IS SAYING...
"Be very careful whom you share your treasures with. How many pearls have you cast before piggish users in the past, only to have them ground to powder?
The servant Paul the apostle was more than a new herald in the order of the day. He stirred up old systems and disturbed demonic religious strongholds. You must be ready to "power up" for years of opposition and hoards of religious factions and fractures of truth!
The past years of agony have been hard soldierly-like boot camp. 
Elite forces training.
It will not go away. 
You must simply learn that it is My duty to do the fighting for you.
Just be certain that you are only speaking, ONLY SPEAKING, what I have told you to.
Speak Nothing more and Speak Nothing less."
 
THIS IS A TIME IN THE KINGDOM 
WHERE WE ALL MUST SOBERLY COUNT THE COST 
OF WHAT WE ARE ABOUT TO STEP INTO ON EVERY LEVEL.
 
If there is not the peace of the Holy Spirit resting on those whom you are involved with, don't move into anything until the peace comes.
Gatherings and movements can feel real exciting and purposeful, until conflict, control, and competition show up.
The apostolic and prophetic saints in Acts, fasted, ministered to the Lord, and then the Holy Spirit spoke. 
We have all learned many a painful lesson in the past from experiences of over planning, programming, and hurrying to help God out!
 
To everything there is a season, a time. 
Until you have a full green light, don't move. 
 It will keep you from having to backtrack and...
 …It trains you in humility.
 
Familiar Friends OR RELATIONSHIPS?
Ask yourself the following question. 
"Are you simply a familiar with people or are you working in relationship with others and those whom you feel are to move into a more Kingdom minded level of Spiritual intimacy with?"
 
IF YOU SHARE WHAT IS PASSIONATELY BURNING IN YOUR SPIRIT WITH THOSE WHO ONLY "RELATE" ON A CASUAL SPIRITUAL LEVEL THEMSELVES… 
 …YOU WILL BE CONTINUALLY DEVASTATED.
 
Spiritual intimacy can only be as deep as those who spend the time in spiritually intimate worship, waiting, and self-examining dialog with the Father, and in relating to others of a likeminded heart. 
This is not easy for busy human life!
 
"If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves."
Philippians 2: 1-3
 
A PROPHETIC WORD CONCLUSION:
"Hear Me", Cries the Spirit of Holy Grace and Mercy! 
I desire to move upon, in, and through each of you. 
Not one of you alone can endure the onslaughts of evil by standing aloof and silent.
Nor can the most vocal of gifts among you clearly communicate all that I long to express.
Until each one is willing to step into the Holy place of pure relationship with Me and with one another, waiting, crying out, Yes - even waiting until I come and refresh, then the generation waiting in the wings will not fully come forward.
Until it is branded into your spirits that this era in time is for the saving of the lost, the redeeming of the wasted, and the release of My power, of My glory, you will be so very very frustrated by the heaviness that doggedly harasses your soul.
 
What I ordain, I cover. What I command, I give direction to.
Be certain that you have heard what I am saying.
I am fully aware of the weariness and fatigue you have been experiencing.
Heavier than anything you can recall from the past.
 
"Do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you!" 
 1 Peter 4:12
There are many many others globally who are also still wrestling out of the cocoon in new birth and are suffering also. PRAY FOR THEM!
 
Hellish warfare will be a normal activity in the days ahead. 
Unless you harness the power of consistent prayer and train yourselves in regular gatherings of passion in prayer and worship together, you will shrink back into serious doubt, anxiety, bitterness and dread, when the trauma of warfare attacks!!
 
GIVE VOICE TO MY SPIRIT! 
Awaken your mute tongue and give voice to My name, My power and My Kingdom Solutions! No weapon formed against you will ultimately prosper! 
My Spirit longs to declare wonders, to decree Justice, and to destroy darkness with your lips proclaiming from the spirit.
"So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it."  - Isaiah 55:11
Speak out in truth and in praise and I will step into your midst with the peace you have been craving, and groping for. 
 
Quickly! Enter in before you reflect and exchange ideas. 
After I am given My rightful place of honor and adoration, then I will speak and give you clear vision and direction.”
 
"In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I will lay my requests before you, 
And wait in expectation."  -Psalm 5:3
 
My friends, this is a word from the Lord and I encourage you to heed the word of the lord and not immediately go to the assessing and the sanitization of what some would do with a prophetic word from the Lord. He’ll show you what parts aren’t accurate or what parts aren’t fitting for you right now.
But the general overview of this word is that the Lord is calling us to a place of battle, a place of prayer, a place of growth, a place of tenacity, letting go of bitterness where we feel unfairly treated, where we feel like life will never get better.
These are the things that God is saying! If you want to continue to say these things, then you stand in the way of me being the ONE who is the Redeemer of time.
We need to have a challenge to each believer in the Body of Christ, each of you who are servants of the Lord. Every one of you!
Every person listening has an assignment from the Father at this time to tell someone else about the Lord to tell others who are feeling weak and discouraged, angry or bitter, that the need to be understanding that they are called to now grow up into the faith and to not just listen to what other people say, not be inundated with media and false narratives and lies about what Jesus says in His Word.
It is time to stand in the place of trust and ask God to strengthen us in every way, yielding every ounce of our being into His care. 
I bless you today in the mightiest and most powerful and Supreme, dynamic name there is ever to be, and that is the name of Jesus Christ the Messiah. We know that God is Sovereign!
 
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“DETERMINE NOW TO NOT LOOK BACKWARDS” - Everything Will Be Brought Into The Light - Specific Prophetic Insight

 Prophetic Insights From the Holy Spirit
through Mary Lindow
 
Do you not say, 'Four months more and then the harvest'?
I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields!
They are ripe for harvest.  - John 4:35
 
 
PLANT YOUR FEET AND DETERMINE NOT TO LOOK BACKWARD.
The enemy will assault you to press you backwards.
Have I not said, "without a prophetic vision the people perish and go backwards?” 
I am ready to revisit areas that have advanced my purposes but retreated at the day of battle. 
 
THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF THE SHAKING OF GOVERNMENTS. 
There must be a confrontation of governments. My government on earth is arising and causing entire regions to shake. I am restoring and rising up leaders. 
 
IN THE PAST SEASON, MY GIFT WITHIN LEADERS COULD NOT FIND ITS PLACE IN MY GOVERNMENT. However, now I am causing governments and gifts to divinely “find one another" and to connect.
 
This is creating great shakings from region to region throughout this land.
This alignment is creating a shift in civil government.
 
TODAY IS A DAY OF BREAKING OFF THAT WHICH CAUSED MY LEADERS TO RETREAT FROM THE VISITATIONS OF THE PAST. 
Many advanced and then quit and retreated! 
 
NOW IS A TIME TO ADVANCE! 
I am restoring many of you to lead this advance. 
There will be great connections occurring in My Body in this advance. 
This will be the beginning of confronting sorceries, astrology, and witchcraft, which have produced control. I am sending you forward and I am releasing supernatural wisdom. This wisdom will cast down the sorcerers, astrologers, and those practicing witchcraft throughout regions. 
 
LOVE AND CONFIDENCE IS ARISING IN MY BODY. 
The past three years have been a time of restoring a level of worship, humility, meekness and purity in your calling and boldness in the choices you make! 
 
FROM WORSHIP YOU WILL NOW MOVE INTO A NEW SUPERNATURAL DIMENSION. 
Do not fear this call to the supernatural!
The Baal systems of this nation will begin to strengthen to keep my new refreshing strategies from forming and advancing in your region.
Do not fear these systems, but keep confronting through prayer, the powers that have attached themselves to the structures of governments in your region. 
 
I WILL MAKE YOU INTO A SUPERNATURAL PEOPLE
WHO CAN RISE UP AND OVERTHROW
THAT WHICH HAS CONTROLLED YOU IN THE PAST.
 
MY PEOPLE ARE BECOMING A NEW, SHARP THRESHING INSTRUMENT.
This threshing is producing shaking.
This shaking is releasing harvest.
The harvest will not rot in the fields of neglect or laziness. 
 
THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF A POWERFUL CONSUMING FIRE. 
When these occult structures are overthrown, consuming fire will sweep through this nation. And you will set my name upon the high places!
My all-consuming light will address the idols and temples of religious shame and control. 
 
I HAVE GIVEN SO MANY WHO CALL THEMSELVES “MY ANOINTED” MUCH, MUCH, TIME TO DEAL WITH THE HIDDEN SINS.
Sins in their marriages.
Sins of competition, jealousy over who is used by me, and harsh verbal words of shame used to control and break the will of another servant in my calling.
Some have called themselves my servants but have only served their own purposes in a place of self-comfort and self-promotion, letting others do the labor in prayer.
 
 Jeremiah 7:24 says,
“But they did not listen or pay attention;
instead, they followed the stubborn inclinations of their evil hearts. 
THEY WENT BACKWARD AND NOT FORWARD.” 
 
 
DEAL WITH YOUR WEAK AND COWARDLY ATTEMPTS AT HOLINESS, THROUGH REPENTANCE AND HONESTY OF HEART BEFORE ME AND OTHERS WHOM YOU HAVE BEEN WALKING IN FELLOWSHIP WITH.
THE DAYS OF PERSONAL AMBITION AND HIERARCHY ARE NUMBERED.
 
 
MY FIRE MUST BE IN YOUR HEART!
The fear of the Divine Supernatural is to be removed from you.
Many have fallen into fear over the supernatural spirits that have surrounded them. Therefore, they have retreated in their prayer life and fallen into passivity.
 
 1 Samuel 12:24 says,
“But be sure to honor the LORD and serve him faithfully with all your heart; consider what great things He has done for you 
 
THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF A NEW DAY! PLANT YOUR FEET.
The window of opportunity for change is short and sweet.
 
THIS WILL BE A TIME THAT NIGHT WATCHES ARE RE-FORMED IN YOUR REGION, AND I WILL REVISIT YOU IN THE NIGHT WATCH.
I will visit my bride as I described in the Song of Solomon and knock upon her door. This is not a time for hesitation.
Night watches will spring forth across the nations.
Once again these watches will open the door to me, and I will come again.
 
Therefore, I am calling watchmen to rise up and cry out day and night
for my bride to be positioned near the door of opportunity in these lands.
Be positioned, ready to open the door of opportunity in your nation.
 
MY BRIDE MUST NOT HESITATE TO OPEN THE DOOR
SINCE HARVEST IS WAITING TO COME THROUGH THE DOOR
INTO THE STOREHOUSE OF MY KINGDOM!
 
MY WILL HAS BEEN ACTIVATED ON EARTH.
I AM ADVANCING.
ADVANCE WITH ME.
I WILL LEAD YOU INTO WARFARE.
 
MANY HAVE GROWN FEARFUL OF CONFRONTING THE ENEMY.
I CAME TO DESTROY THE WORKS OF THE ENEMY.
I confronted both legalism and liberalism.
I say rise up in worship that you might confront.
Without confrontation, your enemy, the legalist, will gain much strength against you and narrow the boundaries of your freedom.
If you will align yourselves properly and allow your gift to work within my government, I will guide you like a troop into warfare and make you victorious. 
 
WORSHIP IS ARISING. FROM WORSHIP, YOU WILL WAR!
For a sound of war is coming into the heart of my people.
 
John 4:23 says, 
A time will come, however, indeed it is already here, when the true (genuine) worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth (reality), for the Father is seeking just such people as these as His worshipers 
 
DO NOT GO BACKWARDS. 
Take off the old garments that would hinder you.
My advance is now in the earth.
YOU HAVE BEEN BLINDED FROM THE SUPPLY OF THE FUTURE!
 
A NEW SEER ANOINTING IS ABOUT TO ARISE IN MY PEOPLE.
What you couldn't see in the past, you will now see.
You've tried to connect and align with some, but now I will release a new anointing for connecting.
You will see strategies of supply that have been hidden from you by occult powers. 
 
The seer anointing is coming back into your region.
My people's eyes are about to see their supply.
Advance is now in the earth.
Open your eyes and advance with me! 
 
YOU WILL KNOW ME AS THE GREAT PROVIDER.
YOU WILL KNOW ME AS THE GREAT HEALER.
YOU WILL SEE ME BRING FULFILLMENTS
AND ANSWERS TO MY MANY PROMISES!
 
YES! 
You will now begin to release a manifestation of My joy of release from captivity from region to region throughout the land and in all nations crying out for more of Me! 
 
“He will wipe every tear from their eyes. 
There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, 
For the old order of things has passed away."  - Revelation 21:4
 
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" Who Really Cares About Friends Who Are Suffering?"

By Mary Lindow To listen to this message as a free podcast please scroll to the bottom of the message to use the fast loading audio player SUFFERING AND SORROW ARE A PART OF LIFE. 
Knowing this, however, doesn't make it any easier to cope when you find yourself in the midst of the deepest, darkest trials of faith, and mentally anguish and strain.
Don't you wish Christianity could make you exempt from suffering? That would be great, but as most of us have learned, following our faith doesn't give us a free ride. We catch as much trouble as unbelievers—often more. 
The difference, of course, is that we can turn to Jesus when things go wrong. Unbelievers might argue that we're only turning to our imagination, but we know better.
At some time in your life, however, suffering will hit you so hard that you won’t be able to do any of those things, and that dark time will probably visit you more than once. “Even in darkness, light dawns for the upright, 
for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man.”  Psalm 112:4  WE ALL WANT THINGS WE DON'T GET. 
Maybe it's a person you're sure would make a perfect spouse, and the relationship crumbles apart. Maybe it's a better job or promotion, and you don't make the cut.
Or it might be a goal you poured your time and energy into, and it doesn't come to pass or others sabotage it all.
All of us have prayed for the recovery of loved ones who were ill, but they died anyway. 
It takes real spiritual maturity to stay faithful when things go wrong, but severing our relationship with God punishes us, not him.
Its self-destructive behavior that can put us on the path to a miserable life. The parable of the Prodigal Son (Luke15:11-32) teaches us that God always wants us to come back to him. Whether your problem is discouragement, illness or aging, sometimes all you have left is Jesus. When you're angry and bitter, you can still cling to Jesus in the midst of your tears.
You can grab onto him and refuse to let go until he brings you through it. You'll find, to your surprise that he holds on to you even tighter than you hold on to him. JESUS UNDERSTANDS SORROW. 
He knows about being hurt. He remembers the terrible moment on the cross when his Father was forced to abandon him, because he was filthyfrom taking on our sins. Jesus won't let you go.’
And as you age and start down the path from this life to the next, Jesus will take your hand to guide you. He appreciates all that you have done for him through the years, but what he has always wanted most is your love. 
So there you are in the middle of one of life's train-wrecks, dazed, wounded, wondering what shoe-or bomb-will be dropping next, and up walks Job's comforters.
We all remember Job from the Bible. A rich, powerful man, a great father and good in every way was Job. Then, in a series of overlapping upheavals, he lost everything and everybody except his wife-who turned out to be a whole lot less than sympathetic in her changed status.
Battered Job ends up sitting alone on a pile of dirt, scratching his boil-covered body with some broken pottery. WE CAN IDENTIFY WITH POOR JOB. 
Life drags us through some tough times of loss that make us feel every bit like Job. Caught in a vortex of pain, and wondering if we'll ever make it to safety. And, boy, do we recognize Job's so-called friends who showed up to by all accounts offer support and comfort. As they sat with Job in his misery, they took turns playing a self-centered, self-righteous, can-you-top-this game of knowing for certain that every bit of Job ‘s disaster had to be his own fault or a lack of trust in God.
They weren't sure how or why because Job seemed so decent, but deep down, they insisted, he just couldn't be all he pretended to be. THIS IS FAMILIAR TERRITORY. 
You get fired, and friends smirk knowingly when you try to explain the political nature of the event. Your child gets into difficulty-well; you know the kind of comfort you'll get from friends about that.     (It probably started sometime during potty training.)
Yet others try to “help” you with what I call “prayer lecturing.” While praying “for and with you” they let you (and God) know just how lucky you should be to even have running water, had a meal that day and more! Not really comforting in any way, and very very short on compassion. 
Yet, from the story, it's clear that Job was completely innocent. Dreadful things do happen to completely innocent people, good people.
Because of their opinion of Job's guilt, history has bestowed his friends-(and their current replicas) - the label, "Job's comforters." So-called friends who add to a suffering person's anguish by piling on false charges of blame and guilt and harsh reprimand for daring to show sadness or agony.
You may never have met anybody like Job, but you've met his comforters on more than one occasion. They seem to be everywhere.  WE CAN CHARGE SOME OF IT OFF TO JEALOUSY. 
Job had everything a person could dream of wanting-and then some, so jealousy was never more than a stone's throw away. The green-eyed monster is a little more subtle with people living everyday, typical lives,but jealousy doesn't need much ground to take root and grow with vigor. 
WE DON’T WANT TO ADMIT BAD THINGS MAY HAPPEN TO US! 
If bad things happen to people who don't deserve them, they could happen to anybody, including me. If I don't want bad things to happen to me, (who does?), I have to persuade myself and everybody around me that the victim's actions caused the problem. If blame can be assigned, then I'll be safe as long as I'm good.
In other words, if I can claim that the cause of your problem is something you do that I don't do, then what happened to you can't happen to me. There is, of course, no logic to this, but it brings some shaky comfort to frightened hearts.
We see this thinking at work when people stare numbly at adversity and ask, "What did I do to deserve this?" Sometimes the answer is, "nothing." HAVE YOU EVER ASKED YOURSELF WHY ME? 
And it doesn’t have to be bad; you could be excited from something wonderful.
Most often then not I ask myself this after something I am looking forward to goes wrong.
Even at times when something goes wrong I lay awake at night and my thoughts wonder to what previously occurred. I am sure everyone does it at times, wishing for another try or chance.
You may lay awake thinking about your suffering, part of life’s suffering is misery’s shadow persisting/hanging on; not only do you suffer but you have to think about suffering.
I can’t prove this with statistics or find it any book I know of, yet I would say that more people either come to the faith or fall away because of this reason above all; the disturbance of suffering.  YOU SEE GOD USES TIMES OF SUFFERING…  … TO TEACH AND GROW US. 
If you allow yourself to recount your sufferings, did you not learn more about faith while suffering then any other time? It has been said that; “Blessings are God’s whispers, he speaks in our conscience,but shouts to us in our suffering.”  “O my Comforter in sorrow,
My heart is faint within me.”
Jeremiah 8:18  Suffering becomes the only way to realize our hollow spiritual self. Pain is unmasked, and every person knows when something is not right when they are hurting. Pain insists upon being attended to.
So when you travel down this line of thought you come to the idea, why do I or someone else suffer when others don’t?  I KNOW SUFFERING IS EXHAUSTING AND PAIN HURTS. 
That is why it is called pain and suffering. If there were an escape. a person of great wisdom and insight would have done it already. Yet Discipleship demands such trials to compel us towards renewal.  Read Hebrews 2:10

“God, for whom and through whom everything was made, chose to bring many children into glory. And it was only right that he should make Jesus, through his suffering, a perfect leader, fit to bring them into their salvation.” 
The real question is what to do when life has just punched us a good one, and Job's comforters show up at our door. Nobody says we have to let them in.
And certainly nobody says we have to entertain them. And, most positively, nobody says we have to believe them.  “For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, So also through Christ our comfort overflows.” - 2 Corinthians 1:5 
We can sort out the who's-to-blame-for-what after we get some solid ground under our feet and a little energy back into our lives.  But we still won't want Job's comforters anywhere around us… 
… We will want people who care.  “Compassion “ To me not to be kind is evil of the mind.  No need to pray or preach,  Let us our children teach With every fond caress  Pity and gentleness: So in the end may we, God's Kingdom cause to be.

~ By R.W. Service 
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Silent No More

Dear Friends,
I have a most precious "real life" story to share with you. It is the story and of one very brave and amazing woman. Her name is Karen Elliott and she lives in San Antonio, Texas.
What Karen is about to share on this podcast and written pages will cause you to weep as as well as rejoice at the forgiveness of the Lord and His power to wash away deep traumatizing shame and sorrow.
Share this story with young women, friends, and others with a painful past or current trauma. It is not recommended that you share this with young children due to the sensitive information regarding abortion in it as well as a few detailed graphics.
This testimony has now been aired all over Europe and Israel as well as the USA and other Nations and countries. The Lord is using this tremendous story to tell of His Mercy and Grace.
If you are touched by Karen's brave sharing, please send her an email and bless her as your sister in Christ. If you need someone to talk to about a similar series of events, Karen is on of the most discreet and kind women you could ever share your broken heart with.
In His Shadow,
Mary Lindow

“Silent No More”
Testimony of Karen Elliott
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Thank you so much, Ladies and Gentlemen, for the opportunity to speak to you today.   I’d like to share my heart, my life with you.  All I ask is that you please listen with your heart!
You know, I used to ask myself what I wanted to be when I grew up.  There are so many things that interest me that I just wanted to embrace them all.  Art, fashion, interior design, real estate.  I was an art major in college, I had five years of private painting lessons, and painting is a chapter in my life which isn’t over just yet.  I have been under contract with a modeling agency in Texas, because I believe that mature women need to be equally represented in advertising, a trend that is just now coming to the forefront. 
I design interiors for people because I believe God wants us to flourish in our surroundings.  Another one of the things I do is to consult with women about their wardrobes…what sort of styles they should wear for their body type, what colors look good on them, even how to organize their closets so that getting dressed can be easy.
But on a more serious note, I’d like to share some of the secrets that have been hidden away in my closet.  Because you see, all of those things that I loved and embraced were on the surface.  Underneath, there was a secret that I had buried -- a secret that I told no one.
I was born to loving parents who were and still are very much in love with each other ( Karen's Mother has recently passed away).  I was raised in a Christian home and went to church.  I accepted Jesus and was born again in my mother’s bedroom when I was only nine years old.  I was already selfish and self-centered and wanted my own way.  I already needed His saving grace. 
I got married at 19 after two years of college, long before I knew who I was and what I needed in life, much less what I had to offer someone else.  That was what we had in common, and we were soon disappointed in each other.  I went to work immediately while my husband went to college and then law school. 
So much of our life was focused on when we got out of school that we forgot to invest in and enjoy the present.  The goal was more important than the means by which we would attain it. 
Church was no part of our life and neither of us thought too much about it.  I occasionally remembered that I felt God had called me to the ministry as a pastor’s wife, but it seemed that no longer had any relevance in my life.  All that mattered is that we had two darling little girls.  After seven years together and much of the enemy’s intervention, we divorced and I went to Atlanta to live with my parents.
At 25, divorced with children, and with no college degree, I felt ill-prepared for the workforce and I had to tell everybody within the first five minutes of meeting them that my ex-husband was an attorney.  My whole life had lost its focus. 
I had to support myself without my ex-husband’s education and credentials.  It seemed that I had no identity of my own.  You know, when a couple is divorced, the woman is suddenly no longer “the wife.”  The man still has his name, he still has his career, he still has his education.  If the woman did not have a career before marriage, she has to establish herself on her own.  If she marries again, she has yet another name and a new identity to assume. It can be very confusing.  A woman may ask, “Who am I, anyway?”  She searches to establish who she is.  Who she  was  is not who she is  anymore!
Though I had been a Christian most of my life, my identity was wrapped up in being the wife of my ex-husband.  So when my marriage ended, I experienced an identity crisis.  God wanted my identity to be wrapped up in Him, not in another person.
After my divorce, I started dating, and for the next couple of years I had very stringent rules for myself.  But the unthinkable happened!  I found myself pregnant!  It was not the Immaculate Conception!  I was old enough to know better!  How could I have been so stupid?  The choices I had made had trapped me!
The devil began warring on my senses.  Now I felt I had no choice!  If I were to have this baby, my ex-husband could say that I was an unfit mother and might try to take my children away from me!  I felt I had to act fast.  I decided I had to terminate the pregnancy.  I made a call to a man I knew who made the arrangements for an abortion.  The details are as vivid as though they all happened last week.
I could not have been more than four or five weeks pregnant.  After the procedure, I passed a tiny piece of pink flesh which was the beginning of a little baby.  It was not a blood clot like we sometimes have during periods of heavy flow; it was unmistakable.  I will never forget what I saw.
That image has haunted me, when I least expect it, and has never been forgotten even though I have kept my secret entirely hidden for many years. In a book by Francine Rivers called The Atonement Child,  many passages pierced my heart.  The words expressed so many thoughts and emotions that I have felt.  I would like to share one of these passages with you.

Quote:
“She had sought a way out, any way out, and then had lied to get the money for an abortion, sacrificing her unborn child.  And since then, she had lied to herself and others.  Sowing seeds of destruction.  Why had she done it?  To hide her shame?  To pretend the past couldn’t harm her?  To avoid condemnation?  And what had she accomplished?  She was ashamed, hurting, and condemned anyway.  She could have made a hundred excuses for herself – and did – but none
mattered.  None helped heal the secret pain within her because her own blood cried out against her.  You can’t run away from God!”
I had thought that an abortion wouldn’t matter, that no one would ever know, and I would just continue life as usual.  Isn’t the woman the one to make the choice about what happens to her own body?  Why hadn’t I made another choice a long time ago, saving myself from this dilemma?  I thought that the decision to abort was the end of it.  God did forgive me when I wept and repented before Him.  How could I have known that it would come back into my conscience more than 30 years later with such glaring detail?
I married the man whose baby was aborted.  We were only married a month when he filed bankruptcy.  Life seemed to be a financial roller coaster and we were doomed with financial woes.  No matter how much money we made, we never had enough to pay everyone who wanted to be paid.  We were not tithing and we were not going to church.  I was taking birth control pills and got pregnant! 
The next year our precious son was born and now we had what you could call a “blended” family.  I tell you about the financial problems so you can see that I began to live under a curse of insufficiency.   Bill collectors were always calling.  There was never enough money.
Our marriage just unraveled with all sorts of sin.  By this time I had become an astrological expert, and I could, with just a few details of your birth date, time and location, tell you more than you knew about yourself.  I attributed it all to God who was All-powerful, All-knowing, and All-creative.  He was absolutely able to put all of your characteristics and personality into your tiny body depending upon when and where you were born.  I was VERY convincing and had a lot of “believer-followers.”  My door was always open and the coffee pot was always on. 
Then one day, in desperation, I knelt down beside my bed and I asked Jesus to help me with my life and my children.  I had not been doing a very good job with any part of it.  He was right there as soon as I called His Name.  Soon after that we   enrolled the girls in a Christian school. 
I began to feel that we needed some continuity between school and home.  We started going to church and one morning I just could not quit crying.  The pastor invited me to come to his study the following week to talk and right there I was baptized in the Holy Spirit.  When I left the church, my car just transported me to a church member’s house, where I  never had been before.  They welcomed me and invited me to stay for lunch with them and the youth pastor who was also visiting at the time.  As we discussed the Holy Spirit, they asked me to renounce all the forms of the occult. 
I had been involved in everything - astrology, fortune-telling, tarot cards, ouiji boards, tea leaves – you name it!  It was then that I received my prayer language and I began to pray in tongues. 
A friend of mine called the next day to tell me that she had given birth to her first child in a neighboring state.  I could not tell the baby’s astrological sign and I still cannot to this day.  I was totally delivered from all of the occult!  I burned and destroyed all of the books and items related to astrology, worth more than $1,000! God miraculously set me free from that whole part of my life!  I thought I was no longer under the curse, but problems continued to plague our marriage and I ended up divorced again. 
Within a couple of years, I married again.  This time I decided that I was only going to marry a Christian.  I might as well have said I was going to marry the next red-haired man who crossed the street!  I started going to church and praying with this man, but my spirit was warning me.  I charged ahead into a relationship that was like oil and water.     
We were never able to live in harmony even though we stayed married for 13 years.  My children were unhappy, our finances were pitiful, I was deathly ill, and we were living in a constant state of war. 
Because I was not able to keep current on the payments, I was given a notice of foreclosure on the house.  I went through the house proclaiming all the scriptures in Gloria Copeland’s wonderful book entitled, GOD’S WILL FOR YOU IS PROSPERITY.  I spoke to the windows, the doors, the walls, the floors!  No devil was going to take them from me!
I entered a state of faith in God’s Word and one night before the house was to be sold on the courthouse steps, I received a call from a man who offered to pay the court in return for a second mortgage on the house!  It was a stay of execution!  The Lord had delivered me and my house! 
During this marriage, the government demanded our boat and trailer to pay taxes we owed, the bank repossessed our car, we could not pay our mortgage payments, and I finally had to file bankruptcy to keep my home.  Another stay of execution!  I ended up paying off the court, the fees, and all my debtors because my original in-laws loaned me the money and told me THEY did not want my house! 
I shall always be grateful for their kindness to me in a time of need.  Over the next few years, I fully repaid them by the grace of God, who always made a way for me.  During this whole period of my life, I would be under so much pressure, unable to sleep because of so much tension.  I plunged from one crisis to another, and the relief that came was always temporary….another crisis always hit.
I remember getting up during the night in turmoil and to begin thanking God for my blessings.  As I did this, I would eventually come to the place of true praise with my hands lifted to Him, dancing around in my kitchen!
I would sing, “Count your blessings, name them one by one, count your many blessings, see what God hath done!”  The Lord did enable me to overcome my circumstances.
However, there were some other circumstances that came into my life which were not financial.  It was my health. I found out that I had fibroid tumors which required a complete hysterectomy, and while in the hospital, the doctors discovered a lump in my breast.  This, of course, is part of the lingering curse from having had an abortion, though I did not make the connection then.
After this time, I came into a new season in my professional life.  I had become a successful businesswoman in real estate in Atlanta, Georgia.  One of my coworkers was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.  Exactly one year later she died and was buried. 
My emotions were raw over the loss of my friend.  I left the next day to help my youngest daughter move to  Philadelphia.  While there, I discovered a new lump in my breast.  Alarming as that new health concern was, there were still more scary circumstances of a different nature just around the corner. 
As I flew back to Atlanta a few days later, two Canadian geese were sucked into the engine at takeoff.  We had to make an emergency landing back in Philadelphia with foam on the runway. 
Completely shaken, I vowed that if I only had one year to live, like my friend, I would not live my life like I had been!! I set about to change it.  I filed for divorce and put my house up for sale.  Within a few months, my housing and marital status had changed.
Then, one day, my high school sweetheart – Steve- and I began a long-distance friendship by telephone. I called it a “phoneship!”  I was in Atlanta; he was a thousand miles away in San Antonio, Texas.  The Lord said to me one day as I was dressing, “I have chosen Steve to restore the years the locusts have eaten in your life and for you to do the same for him.”
A year after I had decided to change my life,  Steve came to see me.  We only saw each other on four different occasions.  Then we got married in Georgia and I moved back to Texas.   Over the last fourteen years Steve and I have been closely involved with various people, churches and ministries that have continuously taught us in the ways of the Lord  and helped us understand that together we have a call to the nations!  We can say now that we have a global vision.  One day the Lord impressed me to have the word “restoration” inscribed in our wedding rings, which Steve did the very next day.  Truly, we are experiencing restoration in its fullness.  Jesus will transform your life when you let Him!
Once I was scheduled to go on an antiques- buying trip to Paris on the first of March with my employer, an interior design firm.  As I was praying about it, I distinctly felt God by His Spirit say, “No.”  That was on a Saturday.  Two days later
at a Christian conference taught by Alan Vincent, I introduced myself to the woman sitting beside me.  It was Mary Lindow from Colorado.  She felt impressed to invite me to join her and the U.S. ministry team at the first-ever Women’s Conference in Strasborg, France, to be held in three weeks. I told her I would pray about it and let her know.  My husband was very supportive and encouraged me to go.  All week I enjoyed the teaching of the Word, but I secretly was in turmoil over this decision.  Satan was constantly telling me I wasn’t good enough.
Finally, on the last day of the conference, as I was sitting at the back of the room it seemed God said to me, “Karen, you are 60 years old.  When are you going to start?”  You see, I had told the Lord for years that I wanted to be on the cutting edge of whatever He wanted to do on the earth!   Immediately,   I realized that God DID have something for me to do.  It didn’t matter if I felt unsure and inadequate.  I had listened to too many years of Satan’s accusations against me, seeking to diminish me and tell me I could not be useful to God.  He had kept me squelched under his thumb long enough! 
It is true that you put Fire on God’s altar when you answer, “Yes!”  I did say, “Yes, Lord, yes!”  It felt glorious!  I ran to tell Mary that I would go!  Two weeks later I was in Germany and France in life-changing ministry as part of the team!  
After I returned home, I was on my way to a prayer meeting about abortion.  There were representatives there from an organization that is seeking to end abortion through America’s court system.  The organization is called the Justice Foundation. As I was driving, I said out loud, “Well, God, I hope You don’t expect me to have anything to do with that!”
At that moment, the Holy Spirit filled my being and I began to realize that what God wanted was no less than what I wanted for myself.  “Restoration!”    
Near the end of April I wrote out my personal statement, also known as an affidavit, admitting the secret of my abortion. God led me to share the affidavit with Mary while she was visiting me later that same year in June.  I also shared it with a friend of mine, Eileen Vincent, who later became very involved in Prayer for the Justice Foundation.   
They were both so kind and understanding, and prayed with me to have the courage to do everything that God was calling me to do. 
Well, my affidavit lay there – hidden in the file folder all summer.  What was I waiting for?
I had been asked for the very first time to give my testimony and it was for a Christian women’s meeting called AGLOW in San Antonio, Texas the following September. I knew that God wanted me to finally reveal my secret – that which had remained hidden for so, so long in the closet of my heart. 
I knew I must first share my testimony with my husband and children.  Their reaction was wonderful.  Instead of shame and condemnation, they were so accepting of me!  I was so proud of them!
I went to the Justice Foundation to have my paper notarized and turn it in.  As I left their office, I felt that something really remarkable had happened.  My act of obedience to reveal the secret in my closet would allow God to
use me in new ways.  Two thousand affidavits were turned in from all over the country and were finally sent to the Supreme Court of the US to help overturn legalized abortion in America!  I was so pleased that my affidavit was among them.
I have come into full agreement with God’s TRUTH, and that truth is that “it is not in the human or legal interest of any mother to kill her own child.  A mother’s true interest is in her child’s LIFE and her relationship with her child.  Abortion should come to an end.”
I don’t know what the statistics are, but women who have had abortions are much more likely to develop breast cancer and they are also very often unable to have more children. The Lord allowed me to have a son in spite of my sin.  The blood of
Jesus is enough, for He has forgiven me. I asked for and received that forgiveness more than 35 years ago.  But God wasn’t really through. 
He has been leading me to give my testimony so that all of us who have been through this awful act will have the courage to come forward and admit what we have done. 

By coming out into the open, we can end hell’s grip on our lives.  We can be free of the trauma, the guilt, and the shame. 
Researchers describe something called, “Post Abortion Syndrome” as a woman’s inability to process the fear, anger, sadness and guilt surrounding her abortion.  She may have trouble with these emotions as well as grieving the loss of her baby, and coming to peace with God, herself, and the others involved in the abortion decision.  A woman can experience many lasting effects from an abortion, including, guilt, crying, flashbacks, sadness, anger, anxiety, sleeping problems, relationship problems, alcohol abuse, depression, eating disorders, drug abuse, and suicidal thoughts.
Those secrets that remain hidden continue to have power over you, and what I’m wanting to do is to help women see that
if they can come to terms with abortion, that Satan’s hold and power over them would end.  Like a bomb, I had to detonate abortion’s power so it wouldn’t be something that Satan could use to keep me bound.
In answer to my question, “What was I waiting for?”  God has a plan for my life that is constantly unfolding.  That date with AGLOW in September was another turning point in my life.  It was the same month in 1969 that I had had an
abortion, ending a little life so recently begun.   I began my journey of sharing my testimony and doing my part to help end abortion more than thirty years later.
Is there anything hidden in your closet?  Has Satan been talking to you, like he talked to me, keeping you silent and squelched, unable to answer the Lord’s call, like he did to me?  Has he rendered you ineffective in your life?
Today we can break agreement with the enemy.  We can choose to believe what God says about us.  We can say, “Yes, Lord.”  Why don’t you make a decision to give 100 percent to Jesus?  He’ll take you to new places, doing new things, and He will restore the years the locusts have eaten in your life! 
Whatever we have done in the past or whatever has been done to us or someone we love will lose its power when we put our fire on God’s altar by saying, “Yes, Lord, Yes!”  Whatever the Lord God asks YOU to do, do it!
If there has been an abortion in your past, I encourage you today to silence the enemy once and for all!!! 
Won’t you decide today to be silent and shameful no more?


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“THE UPSWING OF THE MASTER CONDUCTOR’S BATON”

By the Holy Spirit through Mary Lindow


Sing to the LORD a new song, for he has done marvelous things;
His right hand and his holy arm have worked salvation for him.
~ Psalm 98:1

“THE MASTER CONDUCTOR”
In the Spirit, I was allowed to see Jesus standing on a conductor’s podium. He is about to direct a New Symphony that He has been writing the score for all instruments of His choosing for ages.
With the Upswing of His arm, with the Conductor’s Baton, the instruments of His choice will all be riveted and poised for the unified sound that this Divine Musical Score will radiate and release. It is the Upswing of the Conductor's arm that begins the concert, not the downbeat. All are in position and ready to engage with His directorship.
“NO AGE OR GENERATIONAL BARRIERS”
Some of the instrumentalists in the coming “Master’s” Symphony have been “fine tuning” for decades. These are mighty warriors who have practiced their assignments on abandoned hillsides and in prisons of man’s making which caused raw and painful heartache, yet still they sang and played on, in defiance against the odds thrown at them by the enemy of dashed dreams and hope deferred.
“THE LORD HAS FOUND A PEOPLE…”
The Lord spoke saying that He has found a people that He can direct with the slightest of command and instruction. They have been in the long rehearsal periods of their lives, memorizing the Sound of His Voce, Practicing His Presence. They have been eliminating their own “improvisations” and “false notes” of self-expression.

“My eyes will be on the faithful in the land,
That they may dwell with me;
He whose walk is blameless will minister to me.”
~ Psalm 101:6


“THE SOLOIST’S OF HEAVEN’S CHOOSING”
Out of this spiritual symphony will often be heard, the sound of “Divine Soloists.” They will rise up as the Master Conductor creates a score for them to yield to. This will be heard and expressed through the voice of prophecy, evangelism, and Divinely inspired teaching.
A marvelous rolling and welling up of Glory and praise to God will be the result of these specific Heavenly Orchestrated Moments.

“IN THE PRACTICE ROOMS OF GOD”
Unseen by men, these vessels have been receiving “Private Lessons” and instructions from the Holy Spirit. He has consistently convicted them of personal greed for the desire to be singularly important and “vogue.” And so – they “practiced” humility and deferred to others, in order that they would be equally honored and valued as well.
This formed a pleasing atmosphere to the Father and He has created a spiritual sensitivity in the hearts of those who choose to lay down personal messages, personal moments, and personal greatness.

“SOME HAVE RUN AWAY AND HAVE RESISTED”
Some, ran from the practice rooms of God and found a “band” of others who would march to their drum, but soon…
…Will be exposed lovingly as insecure and impatient with the fine turning of the Artisan that is created and trained by God. The symphony is being assembled and is in it’s final tuning before the Master Conductor lifts His Baton to all attention to a singular opening Moment.

“THE OPENING MOMENT”
All will be focused on that first Upswing of the Arm or God. The Sounds of Power, Purity, and Clarity will be such a contrast to the sounds of religious piety and self-proclaimed revelation, that even the darkest of hearts will have to acknowledge that this “grouping” of well trained and focused “instruments” have a “something” that sounds differently, that is clear, clean, and arrestingly solemn.

“Your arm is endued with power;
Your hand is strong, your right hand exalted.”
~ Psalm 89:13

"A NEW SOUND - A NEW BEGINNING"
The Melodies of God speak louder through vessels of brokenness and humility than any other voice or man-made nuance could even perform.

"ALL BRAVOS’ TO THE KING!"
The audiences of apathy and wariness who have “soft-pedaled” the freedoms of God’s movements among their own worship time as well as gathered worship times, will have the spectacles of “Blindness to Glory” removed from their eyes as they once again taste and see of the pure sounds of the Heavenly Kingdom, and will themselves remember the days of humble teaching, loving-kindness, and mercy… which they once walked in.

"THE VISITATION OF GLORY"
Those in training and fine-tuning have a keen awareness that the time of preparation that they have been in is coming to a climax.
The demonic resistance has been the most intense that they have ever experienced and yet, they have been made stronger and battle-ready through the onslaught.

“It was not by their sword that they won the land,
Nor did their arm bring them victory;
It was your right hand, your arm, and the light of your face,
For you loved them.”
~ Psalm 44:3


"A CONCERT OF EPIC VALUE"
The Baton Of God is about to begin the start of a concert of Epic Value.
It will awaken the souls of men and women, boys and girls.
All of those who ache for an Answer.
Heaven’s reply will be a powerful exposing and cleansing visitation of Glory that will descend and fall upon those voices and instruments who have been refined in the fire and in testing of compliance to God’s will. These will joyfully perform exploits in humility and in the honoring of others.

"THE LORD HAS DECLARED - SO THAT WE ARE PREPARED"
His Glory is about to Rise Among the Faithful. Get into your assigned places in the Spirit and be at ready to watch the Master Conductor lift the baton of a new Sound, a fresh fire, and a release of His power through Grace.

“After that comes the sound of his roar;
He thunders with his majestic voice.
When his voice resounds, he holds nothing back.”
~ Job 37:4

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Copyright © 2011 THE MESSENGER " ~ Mary Lindow
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